I said to come back tomorrow and maybe you did, and I left you hanging. I’m sorry. I say that a lot lately. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t do ______. I’m sorry, I forgot ________. I think this is a symptom of being stuck. I am having a hard time getting motivated. Anyone else been there?
I had written another post and went to upload it but for the first time ever WordPress had a fatal error, and it ate my post. No I hadn’t saved it. (I know..hush). Maybe it was a post God only meant for me because I’m still stuck. Still trying to get my balance back (not only from the broken leg) but just in life. Have you ever just felt off kilter?
Out of balance, off, a bit askew.
I’m taking a tagent right now but hey, if you know me, that’s actually pretty normal.
When I broke my leg a few months ago walking on crutches and with a brace on my leg messed up my gait. I was using muscles in a way I wasn’t used to, I had tendons and ligaments that were being pulled in abnormal ways. Not only did I have the pain from the fracture to deal with, but then my hips hurt, my back hurt, my other leg started bothering me, etc.
The fracture healed. X-ray looked great, but my left ankle started hurting. Due to having to favor the right leg stress had been put on the left. The tendons in the left ankle started fighting back, swelling, inflammed, painful.
All because one thing wasn’t right, it set the stage for a domino effect for everything else. We have two legs, two eyes, two lungs, etc. When things work together life is smooth, but when part of the whole breaks down, or gets stuck, or thrown off-kilter…what does that do to the whole?
It impacts everything.
My body had to stop.
Rest and reevaluate. See what could be done to gently and slowly, rebuild, reform, and redirect those muscles and tendons back to where they belong. (Why do I keep listing things in threes? )
That’s what God’s doing in my heart, in my spirit, and in my soul (threes again). He is rebuilding those cracks in my heart. He is reforming those habits that pull me away from Him. He is redirecting those thoughts that wear me down.
In order to rebuild something, you have to tear down what was there. That can be painful.
Lets start working on rebuilding and see where it takes us. Reminds me of Nehemiah. I’ve been hearing a lot about him recently. Perhaps that’s where we need to start.
Challenge: Read Nehemiah this week.
Write down any ah-ha moments.
What do you need to rebuild?
What do you need to tear down in order to rebuild?
Gonna go think about this for a while. See what God reveals.
Be blessed my friend,