I haven’t written a blog post since October, 2011. There were a multitude of reasons, but the basic fact is that I quit blogging, I quit writing, and a little part of me quit living. For a while. I got too caught up in what I needed to say instead of just saying it. But God is patient. God is kind. And so after a while, the desire started stirring again. And yesterday the dam broke.
We had a guest pastor at church and he said two things that broke the dam.
“People don’t fail…they quit trying.”
And that is what I did.
He also said,
“Everything starts out small before it can get big.”
He said a lot more, but those two things, those were for me. ( From Dream to Reality sermon )
The words fell into my heart and cracked the casement that had surrounded it locking it away. If I don’t do it, then I can’t fail. If I don’t open up then I can’t get hurt. If I take my hands off the keyboard then the world can’t break my heart.
But my heart was breaking from the inside out trying to keep the words trapped inside.
I woke up this morning, after the deluge of emotions ran their course yesterday, and I am opening up the vein that starts in my heart, goes to my head and leaves out my fingers, on to the page, into the world.
The Word breathed life into this world and created it. Lets see what those words can create in me.
Starting out small…again.
I cannot fail if I do not quit trying.
So I am trying…no, I am doing. There is no try. 🙂
Thank you Pastor Thomas.
”Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin…” Zechariah 4:10